Thursday, November 8, 2012

The one where I come crawling back...

I started this blog when my daughter was first born as an attempt to chronicle her life and to keep track of all her little victories... you know, back when she looked like this:

It will be momentarily obvious that my plan went to hell pretty quick when I show you what she looks like now:

WHAM! Two years in less than an instant!

Crazy, right? It's no testament to me that I failed to keep up with blogging, but I am proud to say that I neglected my plans to be a great Mommy blogger to, you know, actually just focus on being a Mommy. And you know what? I think I have done a pretty bang-up job of the whole thing. 

Willow is a pretty incredible kid. She's loving, and smart, and creative. She loves art and building with blocks, and I'm pretty sure her language skills are improving almost daily. Two years is a very fun age for all of us here at Chez Chamberlain - we finally got the kid we ordered (you know, like FOREVER ago), and she was totally worth the wait.

A friend once said that the only way people should have babies is if they are willing to turn their lives upside down for two years. It was a frank statement, but one that I think is indeed true. Now that we have reached the two year mark, I really feel like a significant corner has been turned. It's just so much easier now. I mean, don't get me wrong - there are still days I just get so frustrated with her I could spit nails. But even in her worst places, I never get the sense of doom that her baby days periodically inspired me to feel. Not that the early days were all bad - they had their good moments, too. But I had trouble at the beginning, I think a lot of Moms do - especially with the first one. But now I just see possibilities for us. It's a good spot to be in. 

So I suppose it all begs the question: Now that the horizon looks like relatively smooth sailing, should we have another baby?

Oh man, I don't know, you guys. It's a tough call. And being analytical people, Ryan and I have made many pros and cons lists. Depending on the day, there can be more pros or cons on the lists, so we vary on our opinion based on our momentary circumstance. And that worries me. What if my wavering on the idea is a sign that I'm not committed enough to go through with it happily? But then I remember back to my pregnancy and how scared I was on some days, and then how happy I was on others and I think that these emotional swings on the topic could be natural.

What do you think out there in internet land? Were you scared to take the plunge and have a second kid?

I think the most important thing for the moment is that we are very content with our family just how it is - and that is a pretty comforting thought no matter what direction the wind ends up going.

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